Reflecting

IMG_6499[1]Recently taken at the beautiful Bryce Canyon National Park just a couple hours from where I now live!

I didn’t intend to write a blog post today.  I actually haven’t been writing a whole lot lately, besides in my journal.  I just had a really intense moment as I hoofed it by foot over to the library this morning (I have been trying to do 1-2 days per week of no driving) and I got inspired.  The moment made me want to write it down as soon as possible before I forgot it.  I thought that this would be the perfect place to share it because I feel like someone out there needs to read it and I haven’t written a post in a while.

 

Lately I have been stressing out about many different things and it has no doubt been manifesting out into my physical reality.  Just lots of tough, dense, life darkness and yet on the other hand, I know that I have had so many blessings as well.  It’s just that, my monkey mind has been on full-swing and I haven’t been sticking with my meditation practice as strongly as I used to….it truly is amazing to see the difference which occurs when I don’t stick with it.  I don’t want to delve into too many of the details of what is going on in my life, but the best way to put it is that I am finally facing a ton of my crap that I can no longer run away from.

 

So, as I am walking to the library, with cars whizzing by me, loud sirens and car alarms going off…my mind was doing it’s wandering.  As it was wandering, it was playing out all of these different scenarios, such as “Ohhhh, maybe if I decide to take that path, that will create happiness and peace in my life, ohhhh maybe I shouldn’t have done that and then I wouldn’t have found myself in this situation, etc. etc. etc…” It was creating straight up novels based upon a future that hasn’t happened yet and the past that is no longer.  As the stories built up, the anxiety in my chest got stronger.

 

I turned the corner to head down the main street that gets me to the library.  Everything went quiet since it’s a residential street and it doesn’t have much traffic usually. All of a sudden, my anxiety dissipated and everything felt just like pure peace.  I looked over to my right and in someone’s house window was a message that simply stated “Enjoy the journey.”  All of my worries, all of my planning just dropped like a giant Jenga tower and again, I just felt the pure peace of the moment.  Not one minute later, I noticed a cemetery to the right of the house that I had never noticed before since I always drive to the library.

 

As I passed by all the tombstones, the wind gently pushed in the direction towards the library causing a chill up and down my spine. I started reading the messages on the tombstones, one in particular was a man that passed away in 2008, he was almost the exact same age as me. Further on, I kept noticing how unique and personal each tombstone was and how there were so many different ages, from a baby that had only lived a week to a man in his late 90s.  I started nearing towards the end and there was a sign that had a message on it, but it was bent and blocked by a big bush, so the only word that was visible on it was bright lettering that stated:

 

“NOW.”

 

It just seemed like a pretty clear message to me, as I was worrying the whole morning and night before. It can all end at any moment, truly, so to stay present with wherever you are is the most important.  I no longer want to dwell on past regrets as there isn’t anything that I can do regarding it, except to accept them as lessons.  I also don’t want to keep projecting a future that is yet to be, as Doris Day sang “whatever will be, will be. The future’s not ours to see.”  While it’s good to do a little bit of planning, it’s also best to adjust to the flow and appreciate what is happening now.  I dunno, just a little musing for this Thursday morning, thanks for reading if ya have thus far.  Peace out!  🙂

Drop Pin Me!

Shortly before biking over to Angkor Wat in Cambodia, 2012.

“So where do you think you want to be dropped?!” My friend Diane asked me as she pulled her hair to the side and took a bite out of her burrito.  I looked through the restaurant’s glass window and watched as rain poured down on yet another stormy day in Portland, Oregon. Diane was referring to a game that she, our friend Tom, and I came up with one sunny afternoon when we were a bit buzzed at a brewery.  It was one of those things where you have a couple beers and you start planning a rock band with your friends, you know….one of those things that you talk about, but never actually walk about.  But it hit me that stormy afternoon as we munched on our burritos that Diane was still very serious about this.

 

“South America or China, although…I am really open to wherever!”  I smiled and answered.  Yes, this would become something real, I decided right then and there. Why the hell not?  What do I have to lose except for some money, but I truly believe the idea that travel is the one thing that you can spend money on in which you will grow richer.  I realized that every travel experience I have ever had made my mind, body, and soul flourish.  This experience would be no different.

 In front of Gulfoss Waterfall in Iceland, a few days before Christmas 2016

Our creation that was just buzzed talk at first has now become a website thanks to Diane and her friend: http://www.droppinme.com.  The rules are that I do not find out where I am going until I get to the airport.  Please stop by and throw down a vote for me on what country you would like me to go to. Each vote is $1 through PayPal, although, if you don’t have PayPal you can pay through “Venmo” to my friend Diane (you’ll see it at the area where you vote on the site.)  The money will go to a charity that I choose in the country in which I will be “dropped.”

The rules are, you can’t send me to a country that I have already been to. For the record, these are the countries that I have visited: Bahamas, Cambodia, Canada, Cayman Islands, Czech Republic, Hungary, Iceland, Ireland, Jamaica, Mexico, Poland, Puerto Rico, Slovakia, Thailand, United States, Vietnam, Virgin Islands. Also, it has to be a country that is safe enough.  My friend Diane is monitoring my votes and will give me a heads up on what kind of weather that I can expect in the country that I’ll be dropped in so that I know what kind of clothing to pack. 

With friends at Phi Phi Leh Island near Phuket, Thailand.

This will be my one last hurrah this year before I start work again in Oregon in January.  I am so excited to be able to have an ultimate adventure of the unknown and to be able to help a good cause while I do it. I am thankful for any and all support.  I appreciate all of my followers on here and hope that you are enjoying your unknown adventures in wherever your journey has taken you too.  Peace out and stay tuned for my next post which will be a continuation from my Vision Quest Journey.
In my dad’s homeland of Budapest Hungary, 2011.

Gratitude in Action

“I am so incredibly grateful that you and your car got us from Portland to this trailhead safely,” my friend Mary stated.

And now it was my turn...”I am so incredibly grateful that I have a refrigerator and cupboard stocked full of healthy foods.”

Another steep part of the hike was upon us, we both went back into the solitude of our minds until we reached flat land again.

I am so grateful for the household that I live in,” Mary said.

I am so grateful that I have my health to be able to do this awesome hike,” I said.

My friend Mary and I have been on many hikes throughout the Pacific Northwest together since I started hanging out with her almost three years ago.  A few weeks ago we ventured on a hike and came up with a new way of hiking. Each time we came upon a new incline to hike up, we had to each think of something near and dear to our heart that we were grateful for and then once we reached flat land again, we’d share with each other what we were thinking. We did it in some back lands behind Silver Falls in Silverton, Oregon.  The trail had many inclinations and there were no other souls around.  I felt so light and as if my body was buzzing throughout the hike.

I have always known the power of gratitude as I have seen it work wonders in others’ lives and my own.  Meditation has helped me to further integrate into the wonderful energy of gratitude. By being so completely present in the moment, everything seems like a miracle.  Of course, the monkey mind comes back quite often (dang it, I’m still human!) But for the most part, ever since starting my meditation practice half a decade ago, everything…a spoonful of delicious soup, resting my body on a comfortable bed, or having a meaningful conversation with a dear friend  have all become moments of gold.

A couple different spiritual teachers that I have been listening to lately have inspired me to start a new daily practice, I made up my own term for it, I call it “3 and 3.”  It’s super easy, doesn’t take a lot of time and is incredibly powerful.  I either do it at night or in the morning when I’m having my coffee.  Basically, I list three things in which I am grateful for, but honestly it’s more than just listing them…I actually try to really feel how deep my gratitude is for them.  Then I list three intentions that I have for that day (or if I’m doing this at night, I list three intentions for the next day.) I have found this to be a very powerful practice because more often than not I reach almost all of those intentions that day.

If that seems like a lot of extra activity to your already packed world, maybe just try to do it for the week.  So before the week starts, list three things you intend to get done that week and three things that you are in gratitude of from the last week.  I have found that actually writing them out, with pen and paper really seems to make it happen.  Do whatever works for you yo, I just hope you do give it a shot and see for yourself!

Peace out!

Listen to Your Heart! And Woah! I did a video?!

​​​​Took a hike to one of my favorite waterfalls and decided to try and attempt something that scares the crap outta me: vlogging!  Click and watch a short 2-minute video done by a rookie.  The message is all about following the heart!