“Well I met an old man dying on a train, no more destination, no more pain….” –Awolnation
As I was walking on the treadmill after work the other day, I noticed myself grasping. I was grasping for ways to escape the present moment. My muscles were hurting from the previous day’s workout, I knew I could only do a walking workout at this particular time and in all honesty, all I wanted to do was go home, crack open a beer and be lazy. I was bored! Walking this treadmill, feeling like some sort of lab rat, nothing of interest on the multiple televisions surrounding my vision 180 degrees. I kept picking up my phone, only to see that nothing had changed: no new phone call, no new texts, no new emails. I started scanning down old emails, trying to find something of interest that I hadn’t read yet…..only to find nothing. Bored! And then I stopped, I came back to the breath, came back to this meditation muscle that I have strengthened over the previous few months and realized: I could die this second. Enjoy…I remembered this simple word and this simple action. I took a look around and just shifted to a different paradigm realizing this moment will never happen exactly as it’s happening right now, ever again.
This is the beautiful part of meditation. It’s not just in the moment of meditation that you are gaining a keen awareness, it is in all of the moments of the day where you forget about awareness, and you bring yourself back to it so much easier than ever before. You remember. Every moment is so original, so unique.
One of my favorite meditations that I have done was one I learned back in Minnesota. I learned it at one of the first meditation workshops that I had ever attended. It was a meditation based from Buddhist tradition, I don’t remember the name of the meditation, however I do remember the monk that taught it–he was remarkable and I am forever thankful for his teachings. The meditation was incredibly simple and I highly recommend it. It basically goes as follows: after focusing on the breath for a few minutes, start to focus on the feeling of being complete. You have no need to eat anything at the moment, no need to drink anything, no need to need anything. You are fulfilled and complete just as you are, in this moment, in this second. Really take in the feeling of needing nothing right now, you are complete. Really focus on that feeling of completeness and anytime your mind drifts to other thoughts, just come back to the focusing on knowing you are complete. Nothing to worry about, because you have nothing to grasp right now, you need absolutely nothing.
The lyric that I posted at the top, every single time I hear it, it really reassures me. We are always fighting some sort of battle to be somewhere, to have something, to need something…….the struggle to survive, but death always reassures me. It reminds me that all is temporary. Every single want, need, desire….it’s all temporary, you’re not going to need money, food or shelter when you enter the next phase of existence. All in this physical world is temporary….such a beautiful thing to remember.
I love this post. 🙂 Thank you for the reminder, Ilona.
Thanks Gina, I’m so glad you loved it. 🙂 🙂
We must think alike! The thing I tell myself that brings about the most peace and the most content is “I’m just going to die one day.” Sometimes I say this to others and they think I’m being morbid or blue, but really it’s the quite the opposite. Nothing can put life into more perspective than death… except for maybe the clear night sky or a great big ocean. 🙂
Hey! Thanks for stopping by and commenting, that means a lot to me. Yes, great minds think alike….. 🙂
Very nice. FYI this is Kyle on a new wordpress blog. Everything you said about being complete was pretty much the crux of the quitting smoking (and drinking) method I used and that people consume booze and cigarettes because there’s a tiny void that’s almost unnoticeable. All they can really tell is they’re miserable if they aren’t allowed to drink or smoke (that is, if they want to).
Hey Kyle, thanks for stopping by! And yes, so very true about the drinking and smoking thing. I remember talking to you about that and how when you hang out at a party and don’t drink, you start to notice you still can have a blast…it wasn’t the booze that caused the fun, it’s the energy and excitement around, I kind of feel as if I pick up on other’s energies at parties who are drunk and don’t even need to drink because of it, hah….