The last couple of days have been rough. Even though I have started my day out with a twenty-minute meditation, the stress doesn’t care. My work has been ultra busy and I have noticed myself easily slipping back into old anxious thinking patterns. It doesn’t help that no matter how many people I encounter or talk to in a day, I have an extreme sense of loneliness. Mostly lonely in the sense of, am I the only one trying to be spiritual in a very physical and materialistic world? I know that’s not true, I’m not unique in partaking the spiritual side to life, sometimes it just feels that way.
As I was shuffling through papers on my desk at work today, worrying about whether I have forgotten to do something or didn’t say the right thing to someone, picking at my lips, I paused and realized I couldn’t remember the last time I noticed my breath. At that exact moment, I put everything on my desk down, took my hands away from pushing on my cheek, took my teeth away from picking at the inside of my cheek and just took a long breath in, that helped tremendously. From that moment on to the rest of the afternoon I kept remembering to never forget about the breath.
Also, I have found it extremely helpful to just count a few things to be grateful for (although I know there is so much more than just a few things.) It really takes things into perspective, always. I got a free carmel latte at work, I used all four of my limbs to have a good workout after work and I have a kitchen filled with food. I am blessed.
Peace and love!